TOO FAR (by Dyna Fe Piral)

 I am already too far different from the old me. Back then, I used to wait for someone's approval before I do something I love, I'm too fearful of the judgements, and of the possible upcoming failures. I'm too fearful to lose anyone, that I might end up walking down the pavements with nothing but my silhouette following me behind.

I'm too fearful that I might end up the the day successfully and with have nobody to celebrate it with. But as I entered unproductive relationship, toxic circle of friends and embraced environment surrounded by people whose good at sugar coated words— realizations devoured me. It boosted my confidence, it served as my guide to go on, stood up as my strength. I shouldn't look back with those who left me while I am still a weakling, those who laughed when I am once a shame, those who didn't believe me, and those who chose to leave after building the 'love' I thought was the real definition of genuine and purity. Pain is inevitable and so as the changes— that's why I can finally say I am now too far different from my old self. I can live with no one to laugh with. I can find happiness within myself. I can go on celebrating my success alone. Having friends? Well, it's a matter of quality over quantity.